Waiting– that ever elusive feeling which houses in every soul and yet which means different things to different people. Why do we wait in the first place – for things to happen- for life to change- for desires to bloom, for love to arrive at our doorstep- for life to change, for time to fly, for dreams to come true…ah! the list is endless and the agony of waiting is perhaps worse than the pain of living through it all without any agendas or power struggles- or to put it succinctly, live in the moment- without getting anxious about the next moment- without carrying the load of past and being stuck in it- for to learn to live in the present is an acquired art- a precious skill – a muscle that strengthens with more use and yet its easier said than done- we as humans are brilliant at complicating things- our minds and ego have a job to do and we fuel them endlessly by listening to them even when we need to ignore them- because that’s what we are taught as a culture, as a society- to listen to our minds- to be sane and practical- to follow the norm , to merge and be a part of this rat race – to keep aspiring and craving for something new or better- a better job, a new car, a bigger house, a perfect lover, an excellent husband, a caring & dutiful wife- and we wait.
But waiting as the dictionary defines it is- to remain inactive or in a state of repose, as until something expected happens (often followed by for, till, or until): and therein lies its paradox- to be inactive is to be dead in your tracks- its like expecting the providence to move to conform to your wishes and demands – its being in a state of inertia and delusion, hoping the universe is planning a huge party for you soon- you may argue isn’t that what surrender is about- but surrender is a far greater act of divinity than waiting- waiting has an agenda attached to it – we wait FOR something to happen, we wait TO acquire something, we wait TO forgive, be forgiven, to love, to be loved, to live, to enjoy, to do this or that and the moment we begin to expect and hope for things to happen to us in a certain way, we have moved away from our highest self.
Surrender is letting go of all those hopes and expectations and going down on our knees to look heavenwards and utter- LET IT BE YOUR WILL LORD- and that requires greater courage, more patience, unwavering faith & trust and living intensely in the present moment – it requires greater soul stamina and more maturity- So the next time you find yourself waiting for a miracle to happen, release yourself from that trap because magic doesn’t happen when you wait but when you completely, truly, fully and unconditionally surrender- its only then that you get out of your own way and make way for the providence to move.
And the most important and cardinal lesson to teach our kids is how to be authentic and real – especially in today’s world – how to be honest and brave and show courage even when it’s the hardest path to follow- for in a world full of insane temptations and insaner choices , it’s so easy to get lost and yet it’s only when the kids are grounded and rooted in their authenticity and values, can they find their way through without prostituting their freedom and values and NOT selling their souls for safety & security – it all begins with healthy & good parenting – of learning and unlearning as a parent and becoming more conscious and fearless and free of your own illusions as a mother or father – for only when you are authentic, can you raise an authentic son or daughter and can we all make this world more real & truthful , more full of compassion and kindness – for love is always the answer and the first step to love & be loving is to be authentic – how authentic are you as a man, woman, mother , father , son, daughter, employee or employer or are you aware when you are not being authentic – think hard 🙂
Judging another human and refusing to be aware of it is, I feel that part of our dark side which when brought into light can create the biggest wonder in transforming the soul to see it’s own gift – the gift of true acceptance – of seeing another soul for what they are and learning to surrender to that fact totally – yet we all judge most of the times – it requires a conscious effort to check ourselves when we begin to put someone in a box and assess them – the real truth is that we are judging ourselves at that point – and yet I feel the intent is of key importance here – sometimes we judge others in order to understand ourselves better and more lucidly – the intention is not to malign or bring down the other – but the tricky part is to be aware when we judge – to know whether we are doing it unconsciously because judging others has become our second nature – whether we are doing it out of hurt, insecurity or need for validation – being aware is the key – and the pain of being judged by the ones we love is perhaps the most excruciating pain one can experience – it’s the kind of suffering that sometimes requires immense time to heal and forgive – and yet if we can be compassionate and think before we open our mouths – it will save so many broken hearts, bruised souls and ugly relationships- we don’t judge another when we judge – we judge our own selves and show how inadequate we are by making another feel inadequate …think about it.
And sometimes the heart will break so silently that all you will hear is the crushing of your soul – there will be no tears – of pain or anger – there will just be a stillness that will echo far and wide in the entire universe and yet this roaring silence will engulf your being and make you wander in the darkness of your inner alleys – making you wonder why you did what you did – but there are no logical reasons for why the loving heart does what it does- there’s no logic for why we trust whom we trust – there’s no reasoning for why faith is blind and never questions or doubts- and the numbness slowly spreads – the heartbreak is the beginning of the deepening of our souls – of knowing what our hearts can hold and what we can endure – for when the heartbreak is so silent – it’s because the soul knows what’s lost and gone was not worth anything – it was meant to go sooner or later but the lessons it has taught are priceless and worth a treasure – for as the crater of the soul widens and deepens, the noise of the heart breaking lessens and disappears – soak this stillness – it’s here to teach you loads – embrace the pain of broken dreams and crushed hopes with a brave heart – let it go – release it slowly and gently – be more still – that’s where you will find that part which you thought you had lost –
Life and the lessons it teaches you – it amazes me how as souls we can choose to learn and unlearn at our own pace and how at times we can be stubborn and inflexible and refuse to go with the flow – but however long we take to learn our lessons or however impatient we are to get through with them solely depends on how many lessons we have chosen to complete in this lifetime and if the lessons are more , our pace would be faster and as we learn more, the lessons get tougher – and the soul ascends higher – but sometimes the souls don’t learn their lessons in one go- they make the same mistakes again and again – refusing to break the pattern – and the pain of not learning is excruciating even if you feel your heart will break into pieces and you will never recover – but that’s an illusion – for any lesson that’s staring at your face has to be learnt – your soul knows and will tell you – the deja vu will hit you fiercely – you will see clearly that this has happened before and you had chosen to learn a different lesson then perhaps but now it’s time to learn a more tougher lesson this time, a more empowering lesson – and we cannot manipulate what we are meant to learn – it’s THE truth – simple, blunt and ruthless – and that makes life with all it’s lesson so very magical- the mystery of what you don’t know and can’t know – for how you choose to learn your lessons is how you choose to live smile emoticon