Waiting– that ever elusive feeling which houses in every soul and yet which means different things to different people. Why do we wait in the first place – for things to happen- for life to change- for desires to bloom, for love to arrive at our doorstep- for life to change, for time to fly, for dreams to come true…ah! the list is endless and the agony of waiting is perhaps worse than the pain of living through it all without any agendas or power struggles- or to put it succinctly, live in the moment- without getting anxious about the next moment- without carrying the load of past and being stuck in it- for to learn to live in the present is an acquired art- a precious skill – a muscle that strengthens with more use and yet its easier said than done- we as humans are brilliant at complicating things- our minds and ego have a job to do and we fuel them endlessly by listening to them even when we need to ignore them- because that’s what we are taught as a culture, as a society- to listen to our minds- to be sane and practical- to follow the norm , to merge and be a part of this rat race – to keep aspiring and craving for something new or better- a better job, a new car, a bigger house, a perfect lover, an excellent husband, a caring & dutiful wife- and we wait.
But waiting as the dictionary defines it is- to remain inactive or in a state of repose, as until something expected happens (often followed by for, till, or until): and therein lies its paradox- to be inactive is to be dead in your tracks- its like expecting the providence to move to conform to your wishes and demands – its being in a state of inertia and delusion, hoping the universe is planning a huge party for you soon- you may argue isn’t that what surrender is about- but surrender is a far greater act of divinity than waiting- waiting has an agenda attached to it – we wait FOR something to happen, we wait TO acquire something, we wait TO forgive, be forgiven, to love, to be loved, to live, to enjoy, to do this or that and the moment we begin to expect and hope for things to happen to us in a certain way, we have moved away from our highest self.
Surrender is letting go of all those hopes and expectations and going down on our knees to look heavenwards and utter- LET IT BE YOUR WILL LORD- and that requires greater courage, more patience, unwavering faith & trust and living intensely in the present moment – it requires greater soul stamina and more maturity- So the next time you find yourself waiting for a miracle to happen, release yourself from that trap because magic doesn’t happen when you wait but when you completely, truly, fully and unconditionally surrender- its only then that you get out of your own way and make way for the providence to move.