Past few days, this thought has been deepening in my soulscape and it just keeps growing each day, watered by my faith and trust in the goodness of life…in the divinity that has created this cosmos.
And when I look back, I realize that it has taken me many years & countless silent tears to ascend to this present state – of fearlessness. Of being safe with what I have become over the years ; of being smug within this cocoon of light that has broken in through the cave of my darkness.
Yes, I want more – more of myself, more of what I can become, more of my own light to dazzle me and leave me stunned at myself – even blind me.
I want to drain out what I am capable of to the last drop and then fill it up again and then squeeze that too to the last bit and be in this process all my life.
It’s fascinating how we learn in life and how we respond to situations/ people/ circumstances depending on our own attitudes & perceptions which in turn are guided or rather nourished by our learning curve.
Yesterday, while I was at ( my first) coffee cupping session here in Dubai, I realized that to taste twelve different flavors of raw, roasted coffee involves such fine distinction of the palate which must come with immense practice. My taste buds could not decipher the distinction so intently as some of the experts could. It all come down to the technique of tasting & experience which I clearly lacked. And it dawned on me that what I have learnt over the years is perhaps the fine distinction of my emotions. It has taken me age & innumerable approaches to decipher, analyse and understand my feelings – to accept them gently, allow them their space and to let them go when it is time. It’s not been an easy journey but then ascension of the soul is never an easy process.
We have to push our own limits to confront our authentic selves – to unleash what lies beneath – to be absolutely true to oneself.
These days, I hear this thought resonating in the corridors of my soul – “you are here, I have nothing to fear.” God knows and my soul too understands the reason for this thought and that is all that matters.
As long we are aware that what we are experiencing is what we chose & is the best for us, there’s nothing to fear.
till next time,